drink up me hearties

I've had a full week. I love being home. but as always I feel a pull between spending time with my parents... even if we're just in the house together. and going out with friends... which always happens to cost money (which I'm trying to save) so... yeah. also have to keep track of when everyone's leaving and see them before they do.

Life is pretty good right now. I saw Pirates yesterday and bakes cookies with Kaitlin... thought it was pretty good except for the giant Tiadalma... and I totally called a whole bunch of plot devices throughout the series. hung out with Sharla and Cindy in Boulder, Red Robin and B&N with Joyce (where I proceeded to buy a book [Amazing adventures of Kavelier and Clay] she had been recommended.. got to talk to Eric, starbucks with Rabah, ultimate...

I like home because everything is safe, and how it used to be. maybe it's that I don't really meet new people here.. or I don't really have to see people I dont' want to see... but it's nice. v. different from Berkeley- where I don't know (most) people. it'll change. Can you have two homes? Berkeley feels like home, it feels permanent. but Denver feels familiar. like I can navigate it with my eyes half shut and be fine. Like the skies should always look this big and different all the time. and the mountains should always be visible and recognizable.

I want to see Wicked...

So my top teeth are fine.. but my lower jaw is still swollen and funky.. and i feel like I can't close my mouth, because i'lll bite into my cheeks or sometime... and my mouth feels really small.. and immobile. I want to eat crunchy things.

I'm getting out of this house tommorrow, for sure. Alison's graduation party, possibly some disc. and then church and possibly Boulder on Sunday. I just have to get my parents to stop worrying.

I'm coming to realise that I probably shouldn't start working the day after I get back to Berkeley, and I should give myself time to set up things like internet and electricity and stuff... ehh.... no. I like working. Makes me feel like i'm doing something useful, even though I'm not quite sure I'm doing things right.

Being stuck at home makes me realise how boring I am. I sit on my computer, or I watch movies or cartoons or something.. and I still want to eat crunchy things.

I've been rereading American Gods- I don't know why but I think it's the one-liners that always get me, whether it's in a song, book or movie, It's those little glimpses of wit and insight that get me... then of course there are always the ones that try but never quite get there. But Neil Gaiman always manages to.

Wicked in Denver's sold out, but hoepfully, oneday it'll get to SF, and I can go see it there.. and maybe Rent one more time, and maybe phantom too. i could go on.

I want to drive and drive and not go anywhere.

Okay my lists are getting a little bit ridiculous.. i know.

Buttt.... one more. Things to do before I leave CO

1. POTC with Kaitlin
2. Wisdom teef
3. Ultimate?
4. Tea and Crumpets?
5. CHipotle (old one of course)
6. Starbucks with Rabsies
7. see "the group" (sorta)
8. See joe, Yang, Lauren, Anandi, Ildae, Alison... and other who don't fit into "the group"
9. golf with the pops
10. golf with the foote? / wills? /ady?
11. noodles with Kaile
12. swing dancing?

sounds good so far. I may have wasted a day by slouching around the house.. which i get to do for the next week or so when I'm drugged up and will have cabin fever.. one because i don't want people seeing me with chipmunk cheeks.. and two because my mom probably won't let me leave the house.

Then it's back to craziness.

I should probably start forwarding email all into one box... but what's the fun in that?

Home is good so far. My calves are huge (and getting bigger) and I am no where near the flexibility i should be... but that's what watching TV is for- stretching and doing rise/fall exercises. I'm a dork.

I want to see people. I have from the 28th to the 14th. ready... go!

list of joys

it's a little over six months... i said i'd be better about making that deadline. the last one is here
the one before is here
and the first is here

1. late night conversations
2. giving head massages
3. meeting people randomly on the street
4. reverse turns in Samba (done correctly)
5. sriracha
6. inside jokes
7. gchat with rabah
8. cards that really mean it
9. laughter
10. the word "beautiful"
11. thoughts on the concepts of "home" and "love"

this one seems a lot more abstract, or action based, rather than thing based like my last ones.

but that's that.. for now. November 2007 for the rest.

Alex called me an emo kid for having a blog.

so I'm super done and checked out.

which means it's time to start packing.. signing leases... and as Ian says pimping some bitches

there better be tea and crumpet action when I get home- even if everyone has jobs.

I almost slept through my final today.. but it's over with and i never have to read any of this crap again. and I can move onto awesome stuff like Don Quixote, Marquez, Wallace, and other contemporaries... maybe I SHOULD concentrate in spanish lit? would make things easier

I get to eat in sf with Dan (my spanish GSI) que dreamy. jk... my whole class is getting taken out to "lo mejor taqueria en San francisco" it'll be grand. Jaime says that my spanish got a lot better... here's to not forgetting it in a month.

I'm again in a list-y mood. so for the summer- all thing things I never fully got around to:
1. Infinite Jest
2. God of small things
3. Cien Años de soledad
4. McSweeneys Literary Review
5. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
6. Transmetropolitan
7. Through the Looking Glass

to start.

i think i'll read some transmet now.

Lists, it always comes back to Lists.

1. English paper rough draft
2. English paper final draft
3. Namesake
4. other linguistic articles
4+. Lost in Translation (eva hoffman)
5. interview transcriptions
6. Linguistics paper planning
7. Linguistics paper first draft
8. Linguistics paper final draft
9. HOUSING (app in)
10. furniture?
11. Storage (thank you eric)
12. Decal faculty sponsor
13. Language War
14. Finish the following:
- BF's Auto
- Epistle to Arbuthnot
- Browning Poems
- Great Expectations
15. mail program
16. Linguistics Review (wed or Fri)


hahh... seems like I'm taking up unecessary space with 3-7 becuase ultimately they're for the paper.. but being able to cross things off makes me feel like I'm getting things doen (plus its all time consuming)

after this next monday, I have to finish all my half read books of the semester. But linguistics paper first.

edit: a gagillion down.. one to go

I seem to be pretty complacent in my last post

can I say now that I'm not? and it's stressing me out a LOT?

housing?
ballroom?
grades?


oishkies. atleast my job is out of the way.

I just want pattern. and good people. seems like at the same time every year I get annoyed.. there's no good word in englihs for it it's just.. too 답답헤 I don't know.

okay jessica. english paper first. then linguistics.

and then life. and hope rubal's doing something with hers.

I have a problem with prioritizing. I tell myself what I should be focusing on most. but I don't seem to want to do it in that order. time to preorder Harry Potter.

I want some away time- I think the reason I like spending time with Eric, is that he's separated from everything bringing me stress. oishkies.

can I sleep forever? maybe things'll be better when monday's over. too long. too long.

but somethings that's been solved, I now work for the sponsored projects office. nice.