pending

I think I might have a job (maybe) otherwise I've been sending out me sadly lacking resumes for office assitant positions across campus. hopefully, hopefully this comes through. but it's really hard to get a job i think when i'll be gone for a month at the beginning of semester.

Hopefully I'll be able to work full time for the summer. that would seriously make my day- if i'm making my own money. I hope in the future, I'll be able to at least help my parents out by paying for utilities in my apartment (which i'm still waiting on) and by paying for vacations, extra stuff and ballroom myself. as soon as I find out how often I can work and how much i'm going to be paid, I'm going to sit down and start saving as soon as the money comes in. I know how fast it can be spent unless I make a concious effort not to.

so. otherwise... the Berkeley Classic is on saturday, boat dance is today and lindy at night is on friday. so lots of dancing this weekend :)... and a lot of work too.

I'm scared for our DeCal, I hope it goes through, I hope we can get a faculty sponsor, and I hope that I get workstudy (and thus dont' have to pay taxes :))

I'm not ready for the competition. but I'm glad things are slowing down extera curricularly for the rest of the semester so I can focus on writing these papers... which... i need to focus on writing these papers.

i wish it came easy to me... but then, doesn't everybody?

things jessica needs to do- get some cardio, build up her ankle strength, as well as her arches, DO HER FREAKING PAPERS, decal, housing, job...

looks like a lot of things are in flux.

EDIT: I have a JOB interview!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) : ):) :):):) okay that's enough.

I want to be able to pop and lock.

I just watched the movement showcase. and well.. yeah.. hip hop is so different from ballroom.. but it's legit in its own right.

I haven't updated in a long time. but... you know.. so it goes.

Recently I watched a movie 'Brick' with Joseph Gordon Levitt, and Noir goodness, with lines lifted straight from Hammett... and.. and... It's gotten into my top five movies.

There's a part in it where he says "you're the only thing I love" and just the concept of that. not even only person. being the sole vessel for the love of one human... who knows whether it was true or not for the character, but... just that thought. Do I want that? hardly... it's too intense for me. but still... some part of me wants it. but alas, such is the power of the movies.

I've the room to myself for the weekend. feels like March again.

Once again I'm updating at a time when I have none (time that is)

my essay has turned into a weird mutated form of a five paragraph essay (growing three feet and a wing) and its pissing me off. I doubt my spanish essay will be much better.

My problem is.. when i fall asleep- i stay asleep.

it feels earlier than it is. a lot earlier- maybe becuase it's still bright outside- and yet it's 7 o clock. Rubal's asleep and my leg is also falling asleep becuase i never use my chair anymore. I want to SEE people i haven't seen other than a passing 'hi' or a 'we'll see eachother later' it's been two or three weeks. but no- i have to get through this weekend first.

hopefully I'll be able to hold it together tonight.

Damn the ballroom comp this weekend.